The ride

Whoever comes into my life I hope you read this, I hope you realize my heart is still raw, it's still on the mend. Whether you come into my life for a moment, a day, a week, a month, or even years, I hope you realize I have dealt with something nobody should have to deal with & you will take that into consideration when you you come into my life. My heart is tender and sweet, probably too sweet. It will care for you instantly, it will want you to be apart of its life, because that's me, I want to meet as many people, love as many people as possible and hear their story, I want their story to intertwine with mine. I don't want to be just a memory In your life, I want to be somebody who will change it for the better. I want to make you laugh, and have fun & have stupid inside jokes with one another, I want to be a piece of your puzzle.

No matter how long you come into my life, be honest, be upfront, and don't play games with me. Honestly I don't have time, life is to precious and sweet to waste it with games. If you like someone, tell them, if you don't like someone, tell them, if you want to slow things down, tell them, if you're falling crazy fast for that person but scared they don't feel the same, tell them. How will you ever know how they feel If you don't tell them...even if you get rejected or you're the person having to do the rejection, the truth is you are being truthful & there is nothing more raw, or emotional about that, but at least you will know or the other person will know & you will both be able to pick up the pieces of your life and move on, or maybe you will fall madly in love with each other, have some red bull and vodka and go dancing in the rain, but you will never know until you talk. Communication is key in this world. We were born to talk and to listen & to love and to laugh.

I love to laugh, I love to do stupid things at random times, I am wild hearted & goofy. I want random memories & sweet words. If you're thinking of me, tell me. If you just ran into a pole because you were looking at the cool lookin cloud, tell me. I know people have lives, people are busy but take the minute to tell me you're crazy busy but you're thinking of me and you will talk to me when you get the chance, or even send a retarded text, the fact you're thinking if me matters. I love hearing from people I love being able to have a personal conversation mono e mono without the whole social world knowing. Not that I don't like that either, social networking expressions of emotions are great too. Basically what I'm getting at is talk to me, be honest, upfront, and be open to new experiences because that's what I'm doing, and as much as I hate it, I love it at the same time.

God took the greatest love I've ever known from me, but God doesn't close one door without opening another one, a greater one. I'm not saying it won't be hard for both of us, I will compare you to Mike, as much as I will try not too, I will. He was great and I deserves to be compared too, you should feel so lucky to be compared to him, that means you got my heart going.


"there are many things that bring a man and woman together, but only one thing that holds them together....God"

Rach.

Social media

Soooo, I broke down and got a twitter today. Why? You ask, I ask myself the same question. I think the main reason I have it is because I find myself crawling into this deep hate for social media. Seriously guys it's bad. I look in the mirror and see a vivacious 25 year old, but when I think of my thoughts and who I socialize with and how I do it I see a 65 year old woman.

I swear I was born in the wrong generation. I should have been born in the generation where people were up front, honest, worked hard, spent most the day outside, and we're able to socialize face to face.

So here I am on a blog writing about my hate for social media, doesn't make a whole heck of a lotta sense. I'm trying an experiment for myself to see if I can fit better in my generation by exposing myself to things that make me uncomfortable via text, twitter, Facebook, and insta. Me as a person if I want to talk to you I will call, text, or show up at your door. I don't feel the need to go about it all over the Internet for the world to see but that's the world I live in now so I better get used to it if I want to survive.

As for my blog it's a diary that helps express my feelings. Writing makes my heart happy & my mind feel free.

Here's to new beginnings & witty, quirky, happiness in the 2013 world. Wish me luck. (especially when it comes to the flirting/dating world I'm a lost cause. Mike made it to easy for me to fall in love with him & to hard when he left)

Beautiful evening my loveys.

Hi there.

when I’m feeling worn out, like I have no love to give, when I’m feeling separated from the world and cut off from myself and become caught up in every little thing because I’m not in control, I’ll remember that there’s an infinite amount of love available to me. And I’ll see it in You. And I’ll remember that I’m complete, and most of all, I’ll remember that everything I really need I already have. And whatever I don’t have will come to me when I’m ready to recieve it.